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Hello, I’m Your Dad


A few days ago, I received the sweetest text from my Dad and it warmed my heavy heart. Our relationship is still new and blossoming at its own pace. Relationships between adult children and parents can be difficult, especially if that parent has been absent. I come from a single parent household. It has been my mom and I for my entire life with brief interludes my men that didn’t go the distance. So last January, when my father reached out in an attempt to connect with me, I was shocked. I always thought I would be the one to find him; to reach out to him after all these years. Come to find out, he’s been trying to find me all over social media (as best he can, he’s an older guy). It was a surreal feeling talking on the phone with the man who had a hand in creating me for ALMOST 3 HOURS. Like one hour per decade he has been absent.  I went from only child, to 1 of 6. I went from the only girl, to 1 of 3. It is crazy to know that I am a part of a larger family; and that they know about my existence. They know my name. They have been waiting for their father, OUR father, to finally find me so that we can reunite. This is crazy and amazing all at the same time.

We met Christmas day in San Diego, CA. It was a quiet ride down. What would he look like? Will I see any of my features in him? Will we even like each other’s personalities? So many questions! All my questions, anxieties, fears melted away when my father embraced me for the first time. It was everything I needed in that moment. It was beautiful. We spent the next three hours talking about life, chatting about his childhood, and just having regular conversation. I even was able to meet my aunt! Extra, special bonus! What a blessing!

It has been almost a year since we met and we are still building our relationship. To be honest, I am still trying to remember that I have such easy access to my dad. It’s a difficult adjustment. I have talked to all my siblings, which is also an adjustment. They are all so sweet and I’m blessed to be able to call them all my siblings. I can’t wait to meet more of them face to face.

I am going to take this new chapter in my life one day at a time. I am going to keep my expectations low. I don’t want to get too excited and be disappointed. I am coming with an open heart and discernment. It’s going to be one heck of a ride people.


Have you ever reconnected with a long-lost relative or friend? Was your experience positive? Share your stories in the comments below.


xoxo, Panda

Lifestyle, Updates

Here We Go Again- Q4

Here we are again. October 1, 2017. The beginning of Q4. The last quarter of 2017. To say that time is FLYING by seems irrelevant now. That just seems to be what time by with no regard to what I have planned or want to do. So much has happened since my last blog post (a year ago- I know), and I won’t get into all the shenanigans I have been in throughout this year (let’s just say A LOT of travel and a pinch of heartbreak). I realized that though there are a lot of changes, one thing remains constant – my desire to be creative. This does not always equate to consistency and follow through on my part. I cannot make this blog or brand what it could be if I’m not consistent. I have many stories and lessons to share, so look out for more CONSISTENT content.


How do you stay consistent? What are some tricks you use to stay on track? Share them in the comments below.


Xoxo, Panda


PS: I have exciting news to share tomorrow! Can’t wait to share!

Lifestyle, Updates

Let’s Get To Work!



As I sit in my living room avoiding doing my homework and studying, I can’t help up daydream about all the things I want to accomplish next year (I’ll do almost anything when I’m avoiding schoolwork. Haha). More traveling, heftier savings, grander goals.  I want to see it all manifest next year. 2016 has been good to me, but I am really trying to level up next year. October 1st marked the start of the fourth quarter of the year, and it was then I realized it was time to get to work. It will be very hard to accomplish my 2017 goals if I do not start preparing now.  What’s that saying, “fail to prepare, prepare to fail”? So I have come up with some plans/ideas for myself to assist  with more efficient planning for next year so I can hit the ground running.Continue reading

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My First Photo Shoot! Tips & Tricks

My First PhotoshootTwo weeks ago, I had my first photo shoot! For someone who just cannot seem to take a great picture and never knows what to do with her body in pictures, I had about 587 pictures taken of me. Continue reading

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Breaking Out on Your Own

 The freedom in Breaking Up 

Standing Alone

There are times when your life will inevitably change. Sometimes for the better. Sometimes for the worst. We will grow older (despite all the anti-aging products and gadgets to keep us looking young), we will gain and lose friendships and jobs, and we will fall in and out of love. If we will just keep living, we will experience all the emotions life has to offer. And if you are strong and resilient enough, you will go through (keyword is through) all of life’s bouts and come out on the other side stronger than you were at the beginning. Or at least, that is the hope.

Recently, I ended a 6 year relationship. It was something I never thought I had the huevos to do.Continue reading


Rare Moments

February 29th only comes around every 4 years. If you’re  lucky/blessed enough, you are able to encounter more than one of these in your lifetime. This day should remind us that rare moments in time should be treasured and that we should make the most out of everyday, not just during a leap year. I hope you made the most of your February 29th. I’ll check back in 4 years to see how you’re living.



xoxo, Panda

Lifestyle, Open Letter

Open Letter…


Nothing stuns me more than seeing a minivan driver speed up behind me at warp speed only to zoom off into the distance because, alas, I am driving too slowly. Continue reading

Lifestyle, Open Letter

Open Letter…


-_- Have you ever heard that everything in LA is only about 20 minutes away from the Downtown area? LIES! ALL LIES!Continue reading

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Mistakes in the Workplace

Mistakes at work


Messing up at work can feel like the end of the world. Honestly. Depending on the job, you spend between 8-12 hours with these people 5 days a week. It can take a long time to live down mistakes you have made, especially large ones. The key is learning from your mistake, owning up to it, and making sure that it doesn’t happen again by putting in place measures that will help you later on. Today, I made a mistake at work. Well technically before I even got to work. I THOUGHT I had scheduled myself for tomorrow, but I wrote in the incorrect date and was called by staffing to see why I wasn’t at work! GASP! This is my first work on my own without a preceptor, and I’m already messing up. The wave of embarrassment washed over me like you would not believe. I profusely apologized and told her how I couldn’t believe I had made such a mistake. The women on the other end of the phone told me it was OK and that they would just move me to tomorrow’s schedule. When we hung up, I felt like the biggest idiot this side of the Mississippi. How could I have made such a mistake? I’m too grown for such mistakes. I’m supposed to be a professional. I bet my other colleagues would never make such a mistake. I began to beat myself up. Truth is, as I write this, I am still royally upset with myself. After some consoling from my BF and brief tears (I’m a very emotional person), I realized a few things (thanks to the BF).

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