Lifestyle, Updates

Scared of Success

My friend asked me how my YouTube thing was going tonight a few nights ago. All I could say was that I hadn’t done anything yet. I was working on it. The truth is, I’m always working on it. I have yet to get out of build mode. And to be honest, I haven’t done much building. All the thoughts I have and brand building is in my head. There are no tangible, physical manifestations of any of my ideas. I keep putting it off because I don’t have all the right equipment, or backdrop, or camera, or content; versus just starting and building as I grow. I consider myself a creative and sometimes I can only envision the whole picture. The details of getting it done can render me helpless. What’s that saying? Analysis paralysis. That’s me. I get too caught up in the details and find it hard to make any strides towards the goal if I feel like it’s not going in the right order.

Also, people are so cruel behind a computer now and I have a tender heart. I don’t have thick skin, never have. But when there is a vision, a dream, an idea that has been placed inside to be manifested, how dare you allow ‘people’ who can’t support the vision stop you? So I am now in “building mode”. I have started to list the items I feel would assist me in moving this process along so I am not discouraged by the entire process. I will attach time frames to those items, making it more manageable to handle. I am making my creative space more workable. It has to be for my thoughts to flow freely. I’m telling myself that I have to work on my goals every day. I can’t work 36 hours for someone else (I’m a nurse. That’s full time for me. Thank goodness!), and only spend 3 hours on my own brand. I won’t progress like I want to. I won’t progress like I should. So here’s to working on my goal before 2016. Here’s to finding the courage to obtain what I feel is already mine. I hope you take this time to reflect on goals you’ve allowed to collect dust. May 2016 bring goal achieving milestones for you!

 

xoxo, Panda

Lifestyle, Updates

Life Update! New Job! New Place! New Beginnings!

Hey! I have been gone for too long. I definitely have neglected my blog. I know, I know…I should be ashamed of myself. Life started to get crazy, and I became too lazy to be creative. How is that even possible?! It’s totally possible and it happened to me. I was so focused on the complexities of my life at the moment, I would not allow myself to relax and create. I decided today that I would work through the laziness and continue to build my blog.

So…here is the update on my life:

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Lifestyle, Music

Aiko In Wanderland: My Experience

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On Tuesday, September 15, I got to go to a free concert for one of my new favorite artists- Jhene Aiko.

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DIY & Videos

DIY Frosted Beer Mugs

Hello all! I’m here with my first DIY post! This is so exciting! What’s even more exciting is that it is a gift I made for my significant other’s birthday- custom etched glass beer mugs. I was so excited to give them; I barely waited after midnight to give them to him. He could tell I was excited. Here is the process I used to make these super personalized and inexpensive mugs.

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Lifestyle

White Space:

Lack of Creatives of Color Within Mainstream Creative Arenas

Photo credit: http://www.cc-sd.edu/blog/using-white-space-effectively-in-design

Photo credit: http://www.cc-sd.edu/blog/using-white-space-effectively-in-design

Since being done with nursing school (a post on that coming soon), I have found myself trying to sort through all the creative thoughts that were stored in the back of my mind for two years. I recently looked up some creative conferences to attend, and found an interesting trend. Read to find out what I noticed.

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Lifestyle, Travel

Traveling is the Best Medicine

THE Royal Playa del Carmen, Mexico

THE Royal Playa del Carmen, Mexico

July took me to Vegas, Houston, Mexico, and volunteering for the 2015 Special Olympics World Games! Read about all the exciting travel details and its transformative nature by clicking the link below!

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Lifestyle

THE ART OF CONFRONTATION

for Us Non-Confrontational Types

http://drprem.com/love/confrontational-people

http://drprem.com/love/confrontational-people

Recently, I had to confront some people who are very close to me about how they had hurt my feelings. Needless to say, confronting people remains one of the MOST uncomfortable things I ever have to do. Read more about how I “successfully” confront my issues and deal with hurt feelings.

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Lifestyle, Music

TOP 7 Post-Summer West Coast Music Festivals

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Spring and summer time host some of the best music festivals, leaving those of us who missed out without memories of flower crowns and flash tattoos. Who doesn’t love music? Nobody! That should be the answer that we hear. Music speaks to and for our souls. There is music for any atmosphere, any mood, and any occasion. If you’re like me, you didn’t get a chance to go to Coachella or SXSW or Stagecoach because, frankly, you didn’t know when it was. I never think about music festivals UNTIL the pricing has quadrupled and it’s too late to find lodging. I’m usually so caught up with LIFE that I miss out on these experiences that would change our lives. I decided that I would no longer be a victim to my hectic schedule and student like funds. I have come across what seems to be the ultimate guide to worldwide music festivals. And let me just say, it’s amaze balls. These festivals are made up of music, art installations, and international foods. Below is a list of my top 7 west coast (the best coast!) post summer music festivals. Just because the summer is over does not mean that we can’t rock out!

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Introduction, Lifestyle

I Don’t Know Who I Think I Am

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson, 1992

I recently “graduated”. The quotation marks are because it was just the ceremony for me and my classmates. While some were done with classes and could really look leave the venue feeling they completed the end of season, I still have class until August. So for me, I know that I still have assignments due and classes to attend (insert side eye emoji).

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